Do you dream of suddenly coming into money — winning Lotto, a quiz show, or a prize home? With rising costs of living, it's a popular fantasy; but does it always change our lives for the better? Watch Insight episode Coming Into Money on SBS On Demand.My life course was altered one night in 2011 when I withdrew cash for a round of drinks at the pub.I was 29, earning $700 a week pulling beers at that same pub in Wangaratta in northeast Victoria. I regularly had three dollars to my name, and a gambling habit I told myself was 'just a bit of fun'.I was with friends and had just finished my shift, but I was out of cash for the next round — so I walked around the corner to the ATM.I tried to transfer $200 from my credit card to my savings account; the screen said, "transaction cancelled", and spat out my card. But when I checked my balance, the money was somehow there even though the transaction said cancelled — so I took out the $200 and went back to the bar.News that makes senseYour trusted source for staying up-to-date with the world around you. Get free daily news updates and analysis, straight to your inbox.I passed the same machine on my way out. Something made me stop, and I put my card back in.I tried $500. Then $600. Same thing: transaction cancelled, money appeared.I maxed out both my cards that night and went home to bed thinking I'd imagined the whole thing.I hadn't.Power I had never feltOver the next four and a half months, I withdrew $1.6 million.It didn't feel like a windfall at first; it felt like being part of an alternate reality.It was exhilarating. The power I felt during that time was unlike anything I'd experienced in my entire life.This is one of the biggest banks in the country, and I was a barman from a small regional city who had found a crack in the wall.Something was intoxicating about that — I felt it was the little guy getting one over on a system that never seems to work in your favour.I told myself that banks took from people every day in all sorts of ways; and for a while, that was enough to keep going.To any shareholders still upset about it, genuinely, I'm sorry, but I feel you do profit off other people.'The justifications kept me going'I started betting regularly behind the bar at work, placing significantly bigger bets, and lost my job when management caught on. My relationship also ended, so I felt the 'limitless' bank card was the only good thing in my life at the time.I flew on private jets. I took mates to a remote island in Asia for a weekend — $90,000 for the flight alone. I ate at restaurants where the bill came to more than most people earn in a month. I checked a homeless man into the Hilton on a whim. I paid friends' university fees, covered their rent, bought them cars.I shook money from a tree I had no right to be near every single day, and part of me loved every second of it.But I knew it wasn't right. I knew that the whole time.That tension — the thrill of it on one side, the wrongness of it on the other — is what I lived inside for four and a half months.The excitement made it bearable. The justifications kept me going. But underneath all of it was a low, constant hum that never went away.I shook money from a tree I had no right to be near every single day, and part of me loved every second of it.Dan SaundersThe bank would call to check it was really me using the accounts. I'd say yes, that's me and they'd apologise for bothering me.The anxiety was relentless. I had a panic attack in the foyer of a Sydney hotel so severe that a passing doctor stopped to examine me.I was taking Valium to get through the days. I'd have nightmares about the SWAT team storming into the room of whatever hotel I was staying at.Every day felt like the last one. And when nobody came — when days became weeks and weeks became months — that almost made it worse.Coming clean on my own termsI stopped the transfers myself. The question I returned to was a simple one: am I going to take this money overseas, become someone else and disappear forever?But the answer was no. I couldn't leave my mum, my family, my mates. I couldn't become that person.So, I stopped.Dan wanted to come clean on his own terms. Source: SuppliedI called the bank, and from what I remember, they did nothing for three years beyond saying they were going to commence legal action.So, I went to the media — not for attention, but because I didn't want the story told without me in it.If it was coming clean, I wanted to be honest about it on my own terms.Eventually, the law caught up. I was charged with obtaining money by deception, and in 2015, I was sentenced to a year in jail.Jail is its own world. The days are long, the nights longer — and you spend a lot of time alone thinking about things you've done.It was hard. But something was clarifying about it — sitting with the full weight of it all, with nowhere to go and nothing to hide behind.I came out different. I was quieter and more certain about who I actually was. I also had new understanding of the other side of life.My one regretPeople ask if I have regrets. My only real regret is my mother having to visit me in jail; that's the part that stays with me.The reputational damage, the difficulty finding work — that's just part of the course, and I'm not complaining. These things happen, and as long as you learn from them, you keep moving.And I have kept moving. Now, I speak to anyone who'll listen about gambling — not scare campaigns — but honest conversations about where the line is.I feel like a lot of the messaging around gambling is either "gambling is fine" or "gambling will destroy you". And having lived experiences, I want to help people recognise if they're starting to have a gambling issue way before it becomes an issue for them.Looking back, I was addicted to the process itself; the feeling of the glitch far outweighed any other high. The money was almost beside the point. Almost.What I'm most proud ofBoth a book and a film about my experience are in the works. But none of that is what I'm most proud of.I'm most proud of something simpler: I told the truth, which sounds easy until you actually do it yourself.Coming forward when you've done something wrong — really coming forward, not just when you're caught — is one of the hardest things a person can do.But I came forward. I did what I felt was right. It cost me in certain ways — and I'd be naive to pretend otherwise.But I'm in the position I'm in today because I told the truth, and I have no regrets about that. None.For gambling addiction support you can visit the National Gambling Helpline or call on 1800 858 858. All services are free, confidential and available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.Watch your favourite Insight episodes around the clock on SBS On Demand's dedicated Insight channel. For the latest from SBS News, download our app and subscribe to our newsletter.