Your history of being picked on at school has a lot do with your feelings of being ‘faulty’. Getting involved in a group of mixed ages would help avoid memories of childhood
I’m in my late 30s and have a beautiful two-year-old boy and a supportive husband. But when I take my son out I feel like a rejected teenager again, surrounded by groups taking their kids out together.
I had friends when I was younger, but moved schools as a teenager and was badly bullied. It affected my confidence to the point I was painfully shy through most of university. I thought I was ugly, stupid, unlikable and found it hard to make friends. Then I moved to London, where it was also hard to make friends.
I found some help with counselling and anti-anxiety medication but I still find it incredibly difficult to trust people.
Since having my child a lot of my friends have drifted off. I made some new friends in NCT but they seem to have drifted off too. I think some of them keep in touch with each other.
