A notification pinged on my phone.

“New subscriber.”

It was the five-week anniversary of launching my journey as a cam model. I hadn’t posted that day.

I squealed to my partner, “I just got a new OF subscriber and I wasn’t even doing anything!”

That little pop-up gave me a strange, growing feeling in my stomach, something I’ve now started to recognize as pride. When you’ve spent your life being told you’re a failure and a burden, feeling pride is a radical thing.