Widow Kelsey Parker, 36, is expecting a 'rainbow' baby less than a year after the tragic stillbirth of her son Phoenix, saying it feels like a 'gift from heaven'17:12, 07 Sep 2026Kelsey Parker says she is ready to give birth to her 'rainbow' baby after years of unimaginable grief.‌The 36-year-old widow of The Wanted singer Tom revealed last June that the baby she was expecting with partner Will Lindsay – a son they had already named Phoenix – was stillborn at 39 weeks, compounding an already devastating few years of loss.‌The agony of the stillbirth happened some three years after Tom died of an inoperable brain tumour in March 2022, aged just 33, which left her to raise their two children, Aurelia and Bodhi, alone. And with the loss of Phoenix leaving another vast hole, she and Will have been tested in ways they could never have imagined.‌Now she is pregnant again and with the new arrival close to being welcomed into the world, Kelsey is in reflective mood.‌The podcaster and actress says she is so excited despite her harrowing experience and shared her emotions as she took to social media to tell fans how she is feeling."This time last year I couldn’t imagine wanting anything again," she wrote in a lengthy post, which she uploaded alongside a snap on her in a hospital bed with kids Aurelia, 6, five-year-old Bodhi."I remember sitting at home and genuinely believing that was it. That the rest of my life was going to be something I got through rather than something I lived. "And now there’s a baby about to arrive. I want to be really honest about what that feels like, because I don’t think anyone says it out loud.‌"It doesn’t feel like the end of the grief. It feels like carrying two enormous things at once and hoping my arms hold. I am so excited. I am also missing Phoenix so much this week that it takes my breath away. Both. At the same time. Every single day."If you’re waiting for one feeling to finish before the other one is allowed to start it doesn’t work like that. They just live together in the end. And somehow that’s alright. "If you needed to hear this today, save it and send it to someone who does."‌Confirming in June, she said: “A year ago next month, we lost our beautiful baby boy, Phoenix. And somehow, through all the heartbreak, it feels like Tom and Phoenix have sent us another little gift from heaven, our little rainbow baby.”She had opened up to OK! about enduring yet more agony, while trying to remain upbeat for the sake of her family. “I’m doing better,” she says. “All you can do is look forward. Last year was really tough, but I’m still here, I’m still living. I still have two healthy children, so I think you can only move forward and look forward.”At the time of Phoenix’s death, Kelsey posted a poignant poem online titled ‘Born Sleeping, Forever Loved’. It was accompanied by a caption that said, “Phoenix Parker-Lindsay, you will forever be loved.”‌At the time of his death, Kesley wrote a touching tribute on Instagram which said, “Our hearts are broken, Tom was the centre of our world and we can’t imagine life without his infectious smile and energetic presence.” She added, “We are truly thankful for the outpouring of love and support and ask that we all unite to ensure Tom’s light continues to shine for his beautiful children.”She and Tom first met on a night out in 2009 before he found fame with The Wanted, and she once described their connection as “love at first sight.” After a two-year engagement, they married in Surrey in 2018, with Tom’s bandmates Max George and Jay McGuinness both there to witness them walk down the aisle.In June 2019, Kelsey and Tom welcomed daughter Aurelia, now six, before Bodhi, five, arrived in October 2020. Today, Kelsey makes sure she keeps their dad’s memory alive through “happy” daily conversations with them both, as well as through discussions with Will.Article continues belowLike this story? For more of the latest showbiz news and gossip, follow Mirror Celebs on TikTok, Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, YouTube and Threads.