Nicole Kidman has opened up about her divorce from Keith Urban and reflected on her marriage to Tom Cruise, saying she was warned being his wife would overshadow her career.In a new interview with Vogue, the 59-year-old actor spoke about going through two divorces under intense media scrutiny: with Cruise, who she married in 1990 and divorced in 2001, and musician Urban, who she married in 2006.Kidman filed for divorce from Urban in September 2025 citing marital difficulties and irreconcilable differences, with the separation finalised out of court by January.Kidman said her second divorce had been a difficult period in her life, adding: “But at the same time I’m like, ‘OK, I didn’t expect this. I had a different view of what my life was going to be, but this is what it is now.’ You make all these plans and you have all these ideas of what it’s all going to be like and then it’s… not. You have to adjust. You adapt. The future, it’s completely unknown to me right now.”Asked if it had also been a “scary” time, Kidman said: “There was a point where I was very fearful and deeply vulnerable, which is exposing. And then at the same time [I’m] going, “Well, I can either really not confront it and just curl up, or I can just go forward with an enormous amount of hope.”Asked if her split from Cruise had been “useful” for weathering the scrutiny around her second divorce, Kidman said: “It’s all new. Every time!”Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman at the premiere of his film Jerry Maguire in Rome, 1997. Photograph: Maurizio Brambatti/PAOf her marriage to Cruise, who she married when she was 23 and he was 28, she said, “Suddenly I was 22, 23 years old and I had this huge movie star husband. But it just seemed completely natural. We just fell madly in love and it was that simple. I remember people saying to me, ‘OK, well this is really going to affect your career’. I’m like, ‘I don’t care. I’m in love. I want to be married.’“And then I was his wife and they were like, ‘See, we told you.’ I’m like, ‘So what? I wasn’t meant to marry the man I love? Of course I’ll throw my career away. I don’t care.’”In the Vogue interview, Kidman also revealed she sometimes goes dancing in disguise, saying: “I’ll put on glasses. Sometimes I’ll wear a wig to hide, a little dark wig, and then I can just dance. As long as I’m surrounded by people – like, I take people with me – then I’m fine. I need it.”