I build LLMs for a living. Here's why I wrote a book about slowing down.

My job is to make machines think faster.

I work daily with large language models and generative AI systems. I fine-tune, optimize, reduce latency, eliminate friction. My entire professional value is measured in throughput, tokens per second, inference speed.

And then one evening I noticed something: it was 11 PM. I had been "productive" for 14 hours straight. My thumb was scrolling through my phone — screen off. Just muscle memory. My brain was too fried to even choose what to look at, but it kept reaching for stimulation anyway.

That was the moment I realized something was deeply wrong. Not just with me — with how we, as people who build fast systems, have started treating ourselves like fast systems.

The paradox nobody talks about in tech