Let's be fair. The title of this post is confusing at first, but once you read it in full, I hope you will understand why. Do let me know if otherwise since this has been on my mind for some time.
With that said, I did some reflection during the weekend since we are halfway through 2026. On paper, I know that I did a lot such as contributing to open source for the first time, networking, etc. I know that I did a lot than I ever did but the more I think about it, the more shallow it becomes.
For example, on dev.to, I was able to grow an audience and became Moderator on the platform, which I was REALLY grateful for. I never really got this far in life where I was given the responsibility as a moderator at all. I was more of a joking type of person where even though my tone is more energetic and funny in a way, I still get my point across. It's usually the main reason why people don't really trust me on mod powers because of my behavior being volatile in a energetic way.
Besides the point, when I started to reflect on this, the only thing I can think of is "Oh, I just got moderator". Now that sounds so ungrateful if you read it, but my mind was thinking that in a very high level. It felt like I achieve one thing that shouldn't took a month to do. It didn't feel very accomplish in a sense.
