The Little Mix singer also addressed her frustrations with former bandmate Jesy Nelson.

Perrie Edwards just gave what is arguably her most candid interview to date, opening up about her past struggles with ex-fiancé Zayn Malik and former bandmate Jesy Nelson.

On the Wednesday (June 10) episode of Great Company With Jamie Laing, the Little Mix singer first addressed the mentally draining experience of splitting from the One Direction alum back in 2015 after being engaged for two years. “When you go through heartbreak, it is hellish,” she began. “You feel abandoned, and you don’t feel good enough, and you feel like you’ve been left for something better.”

“And then what makes it even worse is I feel like the world was then looking at me laughing at me,” Edwards continued, noting she believes Malik’s experience with the breakup was probably less difficult. “When you’re moving on with somebody else, you always get on better. When you’re the one left behind, that’s when it’s hard. Because it’s like, ‘Oh s–t, they’ve left me for someone more beautiful. They’ve met someone better than me.'”

The British boy bander’s next relationship was with Gigi Hadid, with whom he’d have an on-off relationship for about six years years — and welcome daughter Khai in 2020 — before calling it quits for good in 2021. The model also starred alongside Malik in the music video for his Billboard Hot 100-topping single “Pillowtalk.”