Former footballer Vinnie Jones openly discussed how he handled the tragic deaths of his wife and mum on his farming show.08:55, 27 May 2026Vinnie Jones spoke candidly about the loss of his mum and wife, admitting his "fear of crumbling".‌Vinnie, known for his football career, acting roles and impressive net worth, has been keeping viewers up to date with his latest venture - tackling farmland projects in West Sussex.‌His show, Vinnie Jones in the Country, sees the star take on 2,000 acres of countryside and a host of over-ambitious farmyard projects.‌In episode six of season three Vinnie, who has been open about the subject of death and loss, hosted a charity event at the farm, for children and their siblings dealing with cancer.Following the event, he had an emotional conversation about loss with Jim, a father whose son Alfie died in an accident at the age of 24.Vinnie said: "It's hard to come to terms with, a loss like that." Jim explained: "Every day of the week we go to the grave, change the flowers. Sometimes we go at 11 o'clock at night."‌Referring to the loss of his wife Tanya to cancer in 2019, Vinnie agreed: "I know, because you will feel guilty. It's a process, mate, and it takes time."Everything heaps on very early as well, but you start coping with it. You should get up in the morning and the first task of the day, do it properly, and then you can do the next one a bit better."‌Later in the episode, he highlighted how he "broke down" on national TV following the death of his wife.He shared: "I got it out there, I helped other blokes, I said 'Yeah, it's alright to f****** talk and it's alright to f****** cry and show our emotions, why not?' I look to see how proud I'm making her now."Vinnie admitted he "used to feel guilty" about enjoying himself, but he learned to understand it is what Tanya would have wanted.‌Speaking directly to viewers, he also opened up about the loss of his mother, saying: "I have been through a lot of grief one way or another."My wife and my mum in the last few years. People look and say, 'He's been through this, he knows what we are talking about, we trust him'."‌After taking a moment to himself following an emotional charity day, he candidly shared: "Talking to Jim, it just flooded back so many memories and it's devastating."The only way I can sit and listen is because I have been there. I'm still going through it and I always will for the rest of my life go through it."Losing my mum, it's something that's very personal, it's a massive blow that I'm still holding in, I think.Article continues below"It worries me a little bit that there's been no breakdown. I don't think you can control grief and with my mum I'm trying to keep it away."Whether that's the right or wrong thing, I don't know, but it's painful, it's hard. You have to keep busy or you will crumble, and I ain't gonna crumble. It is the fear of crumbling that keeps me going, I think."Vinnie Jones in the Country is available to watch on Discovery+